Death With Dignitym2

2014 was thought to be my last year here
a diary of posts by Robert M


At the age of fifteen I contracted acute rheumatic fever, was in quarantine the first three days of the twelve days I was hospitalized. From that moment on was doomed to have a different life than most other people, I was a “severe” medical risk, a time bomb set in slow motion. At that time I did not know what was in store for me, though I was told some scary stories and that I wouldn’t live past the age of 45. And if I did live past that, it would only because I would have had parts of my heart, if not my whole heart replaced.

Robert M's First Call Into The Norman Goldman Show

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Friday, December 19, 2014

Speaking on the Norman Goldman Show December 17th

On Wednesday afternoon, 12/17/14 I called the Norman Goldman Show to update everyone on the possibilities of me getting the newest TAVR procedure in order to prolong my life by another five years or more.

I was just called a few minutes ago by Denver Health to set up an appointment to see a therapist about getting this possible upcoming surgery. I am very nervous about all of it.

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

A Follow Up To Going To The Hospital This Week

A follow up to my hospital visits to see if I might be able to get the newest TAVR procedure to keep me alive.

Last week, Monday the 8th of December I went to the CU Medical Center in Aurora. Fox31 reporter Rob Low and his cameraman met me there to cover this story. They filmed me while getting the Echocardiogram and then they also did an interview with both the surgeon Dr. Carroll and myself!

Yesterday I went back there and had two more tests. First was the Pulmonary test, which I passed in flying colors. No surprise though, because I am having no problems with my lungs. It is getting the oxygen to my brain and extremities is the problem.

Next was the CT Scan just a couple hours later. I had a reaction to the "contrast" that they inject into your body, so I had to stay an hour longer and be observed. The next time I am to have one, I will have to take medication first to prevent any problems from maybe happening.

I was called today by the CU TAVR team and given an appointment date of Friday January the 9th, 2015 to get a Transesophageal Echocardiogram and then the damned Cardiac Catheterization.

This freaks me out! I will stay overnight for this procedure and be released the following morning.

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

December 2nd, 2014

Hello. Not much of a post here today. Not much has changed lately. Just trying to hang in there and here it is the second of the month and I have nothing for this month's rent and other bills. Zero!

I was just able to pay my storage unit fees before they went up because of a late fee and that's the end of my money, again.

Folks I am making it month to month by receiving food stamps, Medicaid and whatever donations I might receive throughout each month. I have not been able to get any other assistance here in Denver were we are having a bad rental crisis.

All the long time renters in Denver are getting forced out by ever increasing rents. It is getting impossible to find a reasonable place to live here and there is NO Section 8 here anymore. The list/backlog is so long that they stopped taking applications anywhere around Denver! All the money I receive each month goes straight to my landlord and the few other bills I have. My apartment is falling apart, there hasn't been any needed work done on this place in probably the last 20 years!

I have NOT been able to adjust the temperature of bath water now in the last six months! Back when it was hotter out, the AC barely worked and most of my windows won’t open and those that do, don’t have screens! (A pigeon flew in my bathroom two months ago!) My bedroom window has been broken where wind and snow can blow in for over one year now! The windows are the old 50’s crank style and this place is a wind tunnel at times! I can go on and on about this place.

But I am stuck here too! I can not get enough money together to get another place. I have no credit, so that alone kills the chance to rent most apartment these days. I don’t know what to do!

And yet here I am again, another month down the road begging for money to pay my bills. I sure wish I could find a corporate sponsor!

Next week finally is my appointment at Colorado University’s clinical trial unit to see if I might be a candidate for the very newest TAVR procedure. So yet another major thing to deal with. I do not know how I am expected to get through all of this!
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Below is the audio clip from the Norman Goldman Show that started this all off for me.

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